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its been a long minute since i have written on here...for that i apologize...but life is moving and life is good!

i went to kansas city for thanksgiving...a fast trip as i was only there for a total of 4 full days. however i was able to see most everyone i love for a brief amount of time...not all, but it was a blessing.

thanksgiving with the family was wonderful...we didnt watch braveheart and if you know me you know that is one thing i brag about in my family...for the past 10-12 years we watch that movie...its great. i think the tradition and my family have officially had the breakup...i'm dealing... lol

anyway...i am back here in southeast georgia and its wonderful. everytime i go home i am stirred about the potential kcmo has to create a culture and atmosphere the way much ministries has here.

i have a much more structure schedule these days as i think i have mentioned before. it is SO helpful for my spirit...i have not always been a self motivated person...and although i love flexibility and going with the flow...structure really allows for me to be productive...so i am learning the healthy balance of both.

in terms of the urban house that we were exploring...it doesn't seem to be going anywhere...i have been on a roller coaster in my spirit about it...one day i love it and want it to happen the next day i am discouraged and confused...one day i have peace and then the next minute all i can say is I DONT KNOW... so we are still praying into it...but i personally don't have clarity on what the Lord is doing or calling me to do in it.

i talked with the woman Danya who owns the house to touch base with her and let her know that i haven't found anyone to live in the house with me...and i cannot do it alone. i definitely am spending more time in the neighborhood and meeting more people...praying for more...but in terms of living in the urban core of brunswick...i don't know where it is all going.

we did tell her that we would have a definite answer to her by the beginning of january so i was feeling a lot of pressure to have committed people and a firm confidence that this was suppose to happen...however i talked to Dayna and she expressed that she is fine...all she needs is at least 30 days to help the people renting the rooms now find a new place...she said.."maybe january is not right, maybe it will happen in april, maybe it will happen in march, maybe it wont happen until august of 2010, but i still believe it has great potential!" hearing her say that gave me peace...and lifted a weight off my shoulders. now we can still pray into it...ask for clarity...but have no exact time frame...so there is more room to make connections...more space for God to move...

i am loving my routine...living in the cottage, investing in the norwich corridor area (where the house would be) 2 days a week...working at wake up (the coffee shop) 2 days a week...and working at the marketplace 2 days a week...it's really lovely...doing my best to learn as much as i can in each place...

i realized that i haven't done the best job of living deliberately since i have been here...but the more i go back to kansas city the more i see the potential in expanding much ministries there. and the more i realize that i need to really do a better job at taking advantage of the gift God has given me here. i need to soak it ALL up and really learn all i can while i am here. this is my training for something...don't want anything to pass me by...don't want to look back and think why wasn't i living deliberately.

i have been challenged to ask mama kathy & papa beaver at least one question a week...things to help me understand more of what it takes to run businesses and create a culture that invites the holy spirit in...everything.

my question this week to the mama & papa is 'what are 5 things that you know now, but wish you would have known in the beginning?' so we'll see... i will try to post what i learn from the questions mainly to help me keep a log of this stuff, but also to let you learn with me...or better yet dialogue with me.