CHANGE

Every time i go home i learn something new...

visiting a place you call home, yet no longer live there...always causes one (or at least me) to have so serious reflection time....

this time i learned that i am really disconnected....

in reality i haven't lived in Kansas City for practically 3 years now. See i left KCMO for Haiti in January 2008 and when i returned my heart was still in Haiti...so i struggled from November to February to get by and try not to miss Haiti too much...

then i moved to Georgia and what was suppose to be 6 months has turned into 23 months. God has been dealing with me on my attachment to KCMO since i left...

see i LOVE this city. it has a special place in my heart...yes it is not NYC or anything spectacular, but i saw so much beauty, community and potential there... i grew into my own there... i struggled there... i made friends for life there....learned there...and i DREAMED....

however, i have let go of it in so many ways...i just for some reason didn't think it would let go of me...sounds awkward...but who said lulu's or succotash (2 of my favorite restaurants) could move locations without notifying me ...but apparently things, people and places are constantly changing.

i recently wrote a quote on a previous post that came to mind several times while i was home in KC.... "change is part of life....we either change or we die...it's a choice."

i think i want to be wise by choosing to accept the change, embrace it, learn from it, and be content in the seasons that come. its all for Good...my Father says His plans are not to harm but to give hope and a future in Jer. 29, so this i hold on to....

i am thankful for the things that will always keep me connected there, my family and my closest of friends....but the city i lived in will no doubt change and maybe one day God will bring me back to embrace it all over again in a new fresh way...

until than i welcome the seasons that are here now and will come to pass.... and if i never return to dwell there...i know its beauty, its community, its potential and the ways that it has shaped me. thank you KC...but more importantly thank you for the people that make that place what it is to me.... you know who you are.

LOVE LOVE LOVE....