processing?

I still cannot believe this is all real at times...i ask myself if i am processing and to be honest i have no idea...i think i am still in shock at times...and other times just taking one step at a time doing the task in front of me...other times i am so exhausted and numb.... i have no idea how long i am going to be here, but as i am sure many of you know...it would be much harder for me not to be here. i am where God wants me. but i do not think i am anywhere close to processing it all.

we still have aftershocks happening...the nannies and children are sleeping outside...the last 3 nights i have with them...and last night was the first trimmer that they all didnt wake up for...i have been rebuking the spirit of fear...i hope this is a sign that they are settling down and trusting that the Lord has many angels surrounding us. i will say its really beautiful sleeping outside with the kids and under the stars. we are so blessed to be alive.

however i am extremely tired...i dont know how are nannies are doing it. Sr. Jesula is staying here with her two kids because her house is not safe, Sr. Leone is staying here as well because her house fell...two of our nannies have injuries (Sr. Claudia & Sr. Bebe)...we have not heard from 2 others (Sr. Rose & Sr. Rosie)....so we have 2 staying and working practically 24/7 with the kids and 5 coming and going (Sr. Margarette, Sr. Katlyne, Sr. Veronique, Sr. Suzette & Sr. Eva). Please pray for our nannies and their families. we could not do this without them and they are so beautiful each in their own way...i am blessed by them and so glad they are okay. Keep the ones injured and missing in your prayers especially.

awesome God news...the city gave water....helped fill the sistren up a bit...dyno came and fixed the diesel generator so we were able to pump water...we were also able to use the water filter system upstairs so we dont have to buy water.... papa beaver came in yesterday and stayed the night with us here. it was so wonderful to have a papa beaver hug and to feel some presence from my georgia community here. i took him and kevs to sherrie's this morning...then me and Sr. Marie looked for things on the street...and found pretty much all we needed...granted it was more expensive than normal and it was very limited, but we got most of it....PRAISE GOD!!!

However...gas, diesel, propane & water are still hard to find...keep praying for provision in these things....

well i better get back to work...plus helps me not get too overwhelmed...its good to stay busy in times like this...as there is much to stay busy with...i want to get back to helping the nannies...washing...playing...praying...singing....changing diapers....anything....so i am ending it here...

my thanks for all the support, encouragement, prayers, and giving go beyond words i can express. GOD BLESS YOU!

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ps- please know that it is not as violent as the news is making it out to be...i havent seen any violence...mainling haitians helping haitians, neighbors helping neighbors, people thanking the Lord together, people sleeping outside together....yes i know there is some looting happening, but i feel like the news is making it much worse than it really is. i just wanted you to be informed.