learning...

i am learning what it looks like to be here in a certain kinda way. it reminds me of my first month or 2 in Haiti. it already felt like home before really being physically present, but I'm still trying to figure out exactly what my role and tasks look like throughout the day. i know my reasons for taking the internship and what i want to get out of it. i guess its more about learning what is expected of me.

As of right now most days i wake up and me and Becca get situated, work on her school work and then head a mile up the road to the much ministries head quarters, the marketplace. we eat breakfast and i see what mama Kathy needs from me. it always varies, and i am up for anything. one day i booked a teams tickets to Haiti, other times its logistical stuff around the businesses. I still am very much learning the ropes of it all, as they do so much. helping with Rebbecca is great! I cant express how much i like loving on her, she is so precious. its really fun to assist mama Kathy and have my own little assistant at the same time! the beautiful thing though is that the only real expectation of me is to be me. as the wonderful Casey put it..."they need some Tasha right now, and you're an expert at that." what a wonderful place to live in.

Papa Beaver affirmed me the other night by expressing that i may not feel like i am being of much use or very productive, but my presence in itself is a blessing. it was so good to hear him say that because i was feeling a little unproductive. however his affirmations reminded me that it does bless them to know there is an extra hand and heart seeking after the same thing; LOVING GOD, LOVING PEOPLE, FOLLOWING JESUS...being real...enjoying life...soaking it all up...having top quality at all facets of much ministries, whether it is one of the businesses, Haiti related or reaching out to the community of waynesville. they continually are giving me blessings and i only hope to do that in return.

things i have learned already...gosh that the work never stops. it is hard to run your own ministry...to take on all the things burdened in your heart...but that it is beautiful. God always makes a way...even in the small stuff. that life lived out like this really is like Haiti...calm and simple, but all at once can turn to complex and full of dependence on our Savior. it is really good and rich. everyday is a journey and you never know what is going to come your way. its totally an adventure. i like it :)

I do have to say though that I went to their board meeting and i felt very overwhelmed. i learned so much in terms of the kind of people to have on a board. i learned how much they have done and effort they put into everything. i learned what a risk it all has been. they are so full of faith. i felt like a crazy person that maybe i should wait like 20 years before i really start something like this. i mean wisdom wisdom wisdom...it is so needed. i am so young. i want it to be a God thing...NOT a Tasha thing. and all of the above just in a little over one week of being here. crazy...