revelation...

the details...i still don't know how to really formulate all of my thoughts, but i will do my best.

since i am indecisive i asked God to help me in the decision making process between staying in Kansas city until graduate school starts or doing and internship with much ministries in Georgia. i had applied for a position at Healthy Mothers Healthy Babies (www.hm-hb.org) before i left for my 2nd trip to visit the brooks family. It seemed like a great fit...so i decided that if the door opened to there i would stay in kc, but if it closed i would go to Georgia. i turned down the H&R block because in reality in April i would have to job search again and being involved with taxes definitely doesn't really excite me.

God closed the door to hm-hb with the nicest rejection letter i have ever received. throughout the first paragraph i thought they were going to ask me to come in for an interview, but in the end they found someone else to fill the position. i am praying God will keep the connection and open a door in the future perhaps. anyway i started watching George this last week and it is going well, but it makes me miss kevs even more. OK focus...back to what i was saying...

Georgia...i have decided to take the internship at Much Ministries Marketplace (www.muchministries.org). I will have room and board with the brooks. the rest however i will have to raise in support. i know i know...asking for money again. i am trying not to look at this way because despite how bad the economy is right now people still want to be apart of things. people still want to be a part of changing the world and giving hope. the money i will need to raise is very logistical. the details of my life...my sponsorship for Emily Marie, my student loan, my car insurance...but with these things supported i am able to be discipled and still very involved in ministering to the people of Haiti. please take the time to visit the website for much ministries it will tell you what they do, their mission, their goals and more. (www.muchministries.org)

there is many roots to the reason in why i have decided to go and am still trying to wrap my head around it all, but i do know this...that it is GOOD! i know God is calling me to live differently, to something bigger than what i see now. i believe that the brooks family and what they are doing is a big part of it. God gave me a vision a few years ago and i feel that this is the beginning of it becoming something tangible. not until this November with the brooks did this dream/vision resurface and i am very excited about the possibilities God has in store.

in my next post i will explain this vision. its very exciting!

thanks again everyone...for reading my madness of a blog, for participating in my journey, for supporting, praying and more. i am blessed beyond the expression of words... <3 <3 <3