Attachment

So If you haven’t read my previous prayer request post you should. This one is more to express my feelings about it all.

Emarie's fontanel is bulging and I cannot express how much I was worried inside yesterday. it was an exhausting day, between being out during carnival downtown, to trying to get Emarie to sleep for a CT scan to be done, to the emotional strain...it was a long day. Emarie truly is going to be a strong woman one day if she makes it through all of this because it took an hour & a half working with valium & this syrup stuff (I don’t know what it was)to get her to sleep. she has such a fight in her and true spirit about her that is unique, strong and oh so beautiful. Dorothy is right I do really adore this little gift from our gracious Lord.

It is truly amazing the ministry that Dorothy is doing here and I am in awe that she has been doing it for 3 years now. She has lost five babies to death during the years and I am sure she has also had to turn away many. However, her faith in God and His plans, protection and love are so incredibly beautiful and inspiring. I am truly honored to be serving along side her, learning from her and with her. I feel that we are making a great team!

its funny to me that Courtney sent me a comment about attachment issues and how she hopes I was dealing with them...and then right after I read it we had to take 'my baby' to the hospital. It sort of opened my eyes. Not that I will not still be attached, but remembering that I am not in control, but God is. Emarie will always have a special place in my heart, but that if she doesn’t make it through and her life is short...I trust that the Lord knows why and that she received love. What an honor it utterly is to be part of giving her that love.

I do believe in God's healing power though, and I see Emarie and the fight that is in her to live and love...so I am not too worried. Keep praying for her though!

BLESSINGS,
tash